duzi's mind

mood: crushed

music: the wallflowers

this one time... it was perfect.
except, it wasnt, i guess.
i thought it was.
the planets knew otherwise.

will it ever be as perfect a time as it seemed to be again?
who the hell knows.
but it hurt, the perfection.
it hurt(s) alot.

and i dont know how to make it any more right.
i dont even know where to look for that rightness.
is it meant to be imperfect?
maybe, maybe.

sounds like a riddle, but its not.
its my heart breaking.
and me second-guessing.
or just pmsing.

Posted at 07:26 pm | Link | Leave a comment | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend

mood: content

music: ian moore, luminaria

on the way home today,
i listened to a band called "this life electric".
'letters to the muse', the album.
i scored this cd in austin at south by southwest.
it was a gimme cd.
people in the streets literally handing you cds as you walk by.
anyway, this cd was a nice score.
(the band uses lower case letters, which i find neat and slightly kindred)
the title caught my attention because i know someone as 'muse'.
(and she's a great chick.)
the music is mellow and nice.
it puts me in a 'good vibe' swagger.
weird, but i dont know how else to explain it.
like, theres no need to rush.
i could sit down under a tree and laze an hour away watching clouds.
(i didnt, but just knowing i could was great.)

after getting home..
i popped ian moore in.
this is like dreamy icing on a mellow cake.
thats not a typo, its mellow cake.
flowing with the brand of music.

i wish i could share this feeling.
but i cant even describe it as good as it feels.

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mood: weird

music: i want you to want me, cheap trick

i walked like 4+ miles today.
while reading 'ender's shadow'.
anyway, add a starbucks caramel frappacinno to the mix
and that makes me a hyper duzi.

[breaking news: i HATE it when im visible on aim.]
[[:|]]

back to the hyper stuff..
this would be all fine and dandy if the ads on
the message boards i frequent would cooperate.
i cant seem to get a reply screen in under 5 minutes.
and that makes me crazy insane.
(although it could be the music.. LOL)

see what i mean?
its like my brain is hyper.
the thoughts fly by, leaving remnants of a good idea.
or what may have been discovered to be a lame
idea had i caught it long enough to examine it.

Posted at 07:46 pm | Link | Leave a comment | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend

mood: gah, i should have been more c

music: aqua teen hunger force colon movie film for theaters soundtrack. its good.

so, there i was at the bus stop outside the local H.E.B.
i take the crap outta my backpack to put my groceries in it.
my crap included my sketchbook.
and then.. quite off schedule, the bus pulls up.
i cram everything back into my trusty backpack and get on the bus..
where i continue to organize groceries and stuff.
and less than a minute later, i realize...
much to my dismay, i left my book on the stoop.
it was solid black and so was the bench.
it was also my "studies in molten metal men" sketchbook.
i could have kicked myself.
<~ loved the progress i was making in lava muscles.
oh well.. ill just have to get a new sketchbook.
but dayum, i loved that one.
:(

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mood: geeky

music: 33 1/3 (not rpm).. a damned good mix by a damned good friend.

mhm.
i havent been in ages.
i usually just state "personal reasons"..
but hell, its a journal and ill tell the story.

in 1997, my brother, his girlfriend, my friend, and i all went to see a movie.
it was 'breakdown'.
in the theater, about 10 minutes into the show..
the film skipped crazy then stopped.
and just like in the movies..
the film distorted, a hole appeared, and the film burned into white.
i remember it like yesterday...
anyway.
a few short months later, my brother and his girlfriend killed themselves.

i have officially been to the movie theater twice in the last 10 years.
and today was one of those times.

aqua teen hunger force colon movie film for theatres.
i dug it.
i give it 4.5 outta 5.
but i m biased.
i love the show anyway.

228 minutes on the asmb so far.
anticipate 120 - 180 more.

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